Long time no blog

Long time...no blog....long time, short time. We had our son three years ago in April. Not only are we asking how did that happen, we are wondering if we want to stop it or speed it up. Some days we are in such a hurry for our little one to grow, because we are convinced that as he gets older, it will get easier. It doesn't get easier. It gets different. I wish it did get easier. The second I let go of the idea that mabey it will all continue to get easier the better I felt. The quicker I learned that burning up energy trying to change situations in parenting, is harder than just going through it, the better off I was. And that is it.

So for now, we are waiting on our second child, knowing it wont get easier. It is just going to get different. We try to till the land gently, we try to raise our kids kindly, except on the days we lose our shit. And then we kindly apologize for going over the handle bars, ask for forgiveness, and let everything around us know we love it even when we seem to be the crazy incarnates of ourselves. If that is different from how "everyone else" seems to be raising their kids, I would hope that everyone would dare to be different a little more often.  That is the symphony for now.